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thinking thoughts that nobody wants to hear because they'll swear differently when all i can see is what happens
Mr.Man says:
not what they say or think, that's not reality...
Mr.Man says:
reality is different, it's what we've been deluded to try and escape into with money and success
Mr.Man says:
at some point we have to come to terms with reality....maybe that's where the traditional male 'mid life crisis' comes from
Mr.Man says:
they've gotten money and some success and they are seeing same damn things hiding behind all the smoke and mirrors we've built
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yea, it's not fun
Mr.Man says:
lol i'm too young for a mid-life crisis >_<
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i don't think i was meant for this time to exist....it's strange...
Mr.Man says:
it's like have access to far too many people; people i can connect to, that i shouldn't be worried about, but that's my nature
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i find new people, find their woe and try to lessen it... and it's not my problem but i take it on as my own
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that... or my heart falls outta my chest, beating jumping like a fish
outta water, and i'm head over heels then...for something that will
never happen
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and you probably don't wanna hear this...lol, wow i love coming full circle.... ^_^; | | |
| hi.
At first life was ok, was outta the house, getting around some; felt
good. Then school wanted money, 'wow...that's a harsh little penny'
*shrugs* what ever can't expect knowledge to be free..*looks at
library* But, never the less, i'm working, things are alright.
Hey, nothing in life is free, what am i to expect? Man a car would be
handy... i mean not a necessity, but damn would it make life
easier?...oh but wait....i might as well be broke. It's stupidly hard
to find a decent car in your price range when you can't go to auctions
because you're either at school or at work, or that 2 hours at home
before you go to bed.
Then Insurance, you know what? they can lick my black ass, i mean shit!
for a 6 cyclinder car for a 18 yr old black male, they want like 200+ a
month, FUCK THAT! where am i supposed to get this fucking money from?
just peel it from my ass? yea...right school already call that with my
second tuition payment.
*cries when he sees his account hit for $649* got damn!! this isn't monopoly, wtf!!! *sighs*
fine, pay it...but i got finacial aid going through, this should
help... *checks acct*...sweet they didn't try to take any money :D
*end of the month* ooooooooooooooo they were trying but it wasn't there
so i just got insuff. fund fees...YAY!!! *runs into a wall* ahh...
pain.. this feels better than everything else..
well at least i got X-Men legends 2  ....*looks at life*...what are
you doing here?........What are you doing?....ohhhhhhh that's right
your breaking my PS2...thanks .....*beats something severely*....
*sighs*.....well at least i don't have to worry about tuition for
october now... got that handled........what do you mean november is
almost here...SHIT!! *goes to pummel something*.....what? Phone bill?
*beats messenger* ....at least i didn't kill him...
but yea over all life is lonely....no not good... it's expensive...and lonely *shrugs*
at least i get to live another year of this shit......joy
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| wow....
*sighs*....
i think i'm alive, or hell consist of posting in my xanga...
Megan made me!!
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| *sighs* well incase u didn't know.... my lady love in Wisconsin has
decided that the distance is too much to deal with. She still loves me,
and i still love her so maybe sometime in the future who knows.
It's one of the few things i hope for night and day, not to mention
that she can maintain he sanity and not commit suicide.
Seriously...it's disturbing and honestly i don't care who knows, the
shit brought me to tears and prayer the other night when she was
talking about committing suicide. Now not only am i trying to figure
out whether to move on or where to move to, and how to not be so
lonely; but i've also got this on my shoulders.
I don't know what i'd do if she were to give into all the pressure and
let her mother win. I'm trying everything i can to keep her abover
water, but it's hard when i don't know how to swim myself.
*sighs*
ain't life fun? Sometimes i hate love, as romantic and deeply rooted as
i am in it, it's a pain in the ass. It drives my life and i know it
shouldn't, but i can't seem to help it. I let my life revolve largely
around a girl that i've never met in person and only talk to online and
rarely on the phone.
Yea, i'm lost hope, sue me.
Oh and Meg, i know u notice, i'm sry to have excluded you * hugs* it wasn't intentional, really it wasn't.
Still, it's hard to think that anybody cares sometimes. Especially
dealing with such selfish people and special people at work, co-workers
and customers. Greed has been added to the little definition of what
humanity is and stands for. It shouldn't be, so why are we letting it
be?
Worse thing is, very few of you even care. Again, like i've ended so many of these....
WHATEVER.....
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